Weird thing is it wasn't what i wanted all this time. I mean, i guess it probably was. But I had no idea. I genuinely thought I wanted to do what I was doing. My hand was kinda forced, realised I had pushed it too far with non-attendence, not doing assignments etc and unless i really knuckled down I was going to get thrown out. Basically had to ---- or get off the pot. once i realised that it suddenly dawned on me I had no idea why I was even on the pot.
Still no real idea what I am doing. I made solid (essentially professional) money while at uni, so going to do that for a couple of years while things get sorted. probably go traveling. not sure when at all. Have all the necessary money so will likely just decide to do it one day and leave the next